May 10, 2008 @ 6:00 pm    290 words in post       4 comments

I was very confused where to continue my studies. I asked a lot of people the best place to continue my education and I have chosen the suggestions of the majority. Now, I am here in Cebu and chose to study in UC “University of Cebu” as what they called that school. I know the school for a long time but I have’nt seen the school yet. I think it was a nice school because I heard my friends that UC is one of the nice school in Cebu. I just hope I could afford the tuition fee haha! The only source of my income is blogging and just hope it could be enough for the tuition fee here in UC.

I have some online friends here that I want to meet but I am confused of their comments about me.. physically! Well, if they’ll be disappointed, then they’ll die of disappoinment. hahahha! I just met linnel marie, my pretty friend online and we talked for almost an hour. I am so glad she came for me.. just to see me and I am so flattered.

My PC in Bislig was sold and now, I am here in cafe temporarily and arrange the requirements to get my eon account to be verified in paypal. And BTW, I am not going to sell load online anymore because of the scamming happened to me. For all the customers and buyers who paid me, I will fully refund the money after I verified my paypal. I am so sorry for the inconvenience.

Now, I am leaving because I am only in cafe and I dont want to pay money that exceed my budget. Anyway, I hope you have a nice day readers.

 Grace ♥ thurnz ♥ paksiw

  April 21, 2008 @ 2:01 pm    547 words in post       2 comments

I learned so much about “LOVE” since I left this blog. Love is full of meanings. I thought Love can always give me happiness.. but as far as i experienced, whatever happiness love can give, The pain can be the same and even worst. Love is really unpredictable! I don’t want to love again but I can’t help it.. I think I have to get use to it.

It is really hard for a relationship if you or your partner don’t trust each other. I always experience that and I hate that so much! This is our problem.. I don’t trust him and he don’t trust me too. I don’t know if I really have to blog this. I don’t have a diary only this blog of mine.

If God would give me one wish, I would wish that he turn back the time and I will right all my wrongs in my life. All I want is to be happy.. But the world has been so cruel to me.. I don’t know why I am always in this kind of situation. Problems financially, emotionally, physically and everything! I don’t want to ask God about this cause I never try to ask God when I feel happiness and fortune.

I just got this text message..

“8’s easy 2 say goodbye but too hard to forget..

why?

bec0z love is m0r dan words can say..

0nce u’ve fallen, u can’t help bUt fall over and over agEn..

s0 even if gudbyes have been sEd, There’s sumthing N D heart that says,

Please stay..

why?

BecOz 8s LOVE and D reason is UNKNOWN.
Despite the pain and heartaches..

lOve wil always retain 8s pride,
it’s sweetness and it’s mystery.”

This is a very sweet message but Do I have to believe this? I don’t know……………… someday maybe… For me, love is the most happiest and saddest thing that ever happened to me. There was time when I said, “I don’t want to fall in love with someone again” but LOVE is just so powerful! You can’t help it but fall in love. I ate the words I said. Now, I’m in this situation again. There was a saying I read on a book and I still remember it until now..

Along the Gateway of my heart, I wrote “No Trespassing” but Love came laughing by and said, “I Enter Everywhere”.

All I can say is.. This is absolutely TRUE!

I think I already tell everything what’s in my mind and heart now.. Um.. actually, 60% of what my mind and heart wants to say the 40% of it is still here <3. I will blog about this when time is right.. Have a nice day all of you!

 Janj ♥ Joy